why do they think that if you don't complain then you are ok? Why don't they ask how you doing ? Or how you feeling ? It's because you are betrayed as a person who has no problems. But I find really selfish of others, that nobody checks on the "strong one"..... usually the "strong" person are battles issues you know nothing about.
Its funny how my generation see things, everything seems to be perfect. Everybody has money, and everybody is fly and their world is perfect! But I notice one things about people is this generation. They are selfish, they don't understand the meaning of a friendship or loyalty. I say that because, in every big "click" there's always a person who is most fly and just not fly at all. But, why is that ? Because, people will dead ass watch you starve while they eat great! Not only friends but family. But, then there's me the person who gives, gives, and gives till I have a little. I don't even mean just money, I mean my energy. My kindness, my loyalty. That they do not deserve. Why do I have such a pure heart ?
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Rainy days like this I reflect, I relax, I roll a blunt with my babe and we talk about life. Some people don't like the rain but they don't understand, this is the perfect time to clear your head. And speak things into existence, things you want to do. I know it may sound cliche but there's nothing like them car talks, listening to new music and, just vibing. This necessarily didn't have to be done in the rain, but the rain calms me. It puts me at ease and I appreciate the rain, I appreciate the storms. What's rain without sun ? They balance each other out. That's how I look at life, my mistakes balance me out. I can't be perfect, there's no such thing!
So before you dwell on the "bad weather" understand bad weather makes everything better. You only make through a storm if you know it's coming. So think of your actions and decisions as the weather reporter, and the outcome of your mistakes as the storm! ladies, ladies, ladies. I have something to say!
Let me start by saying this, confidence is a beautiful thing and so are our bodies. But there's a thin line between flaunting what you have and looking like a slut. Now I'm a feminist, so I'm here for the dress sexy, show off you assets with our being harassed. But won't I won't stand for is women being naked on social media, showing everything! And saving nothing for the bedroom. Now, I personally love dressing sexy, don't get me wrong. But I do it respectfully, I also love showing off my body. But I do it respectfully! Now let's bring it back thousands of years when our Slavs masters had us serve them, naked. So just think about it? That urge to get naked for attention isn't only a way to control you but a way to embarrass you. And you know I wouldn't even call it a urge,I would have to call it being a follower. And not knowing how to be your own sexy! Confidence shows through anything you wear, I can have a sweat suit but still have the same smile as if I had on a baithing suit. It's all about what shines through. Don't get me wrong tho, appearance is everything! And that's usually how you are judged. Now let me challenge your mind real quick. Why do we show off ? For validation from others?..... Well I don't show off! I show out. I just walk with this walk that nobody can take from me, I have this twinkle in my eye. That draws people to me. But is it a twinkle you can't get? HELL NO. That twinkle is called confidence sis! Build that shit, tell yourself that you're a BADDIEEE everyday! Make sure you always over dress! Make sure your hair done to the tee; don't forget to apply that face mask at night! Don't forget to tone in the morning. Oh yea BIG ONE, don't forget to say fuck flaw. I'm that queen!!!! why you talking so much? Just handle that shit.
lets be honest, we all do way tooooo much talking. We have to shut the fuck up, and handle that shittttt. I really like the saying "I'm in my bag" because your mind set should always be "I'm in my bag". You see a hating ass peasant the first thing that should pop in your head is "wow this person isn't worried about the right thing, which is the BAG" I mean you can have a different meaning, doesn't have to necessarily mean you're worried about money but you're worried about your goals. What you want to do and who you want to bring with you. Don't let people who didn't feed into your growth take a ride on your plan. Why should they? They didn't see your vision. Yea your mother may have taught you your first words, and your father is the reason why you have your morals. But guess what there's people who don't have neither and their mind set is "fuck it I'm going to get to the bag". So, with that being said, you can't continue habits you was brought up on, cause take a close look to the elders around you. Or maybe even an older sibling, are they really "getting to the bag " did they get to the bag ? 9/10 they didn't, they settled for less because they didnt wake themselves up! They didn't open their eyes to the bigger picture. Does that mean that they're not good people? No, does that mean you keep your distance? Yes. But does that mean you still can't love them? No. If they love you they'll understand that growing is distance, and distance is growth. That doesn't need a explanation! IT'S TIME TO LOCK IN I fear a person that can bring the worse out of me, I fear a person who actually wants me to get physical with them. I fear people who wants to get next to you with a negative perspective of you. I've notice that people already build this persona of you, no matter what you show them. Inside their heart they can never see the good in you, or the growth. They'll always see your image. So you know what that mean? We change our image, have the inside match the out! So that way you can truly attract the type energy you need around you. Energy plays a big part in life, if a person energy is fucked up their whole life is fucked up. No matter what it "looks" like, they will never have it together. And you being around that type of person or energy just blocks your clear thinking, your third eye. You will always be cloudy, confused and lost.
I never noticed how much energy mattered until, I went through a drought in my life, where I was lost. I didn't know wth was going on, I didn't even know the people around me. I never want to feel like that again. So that's why you have to protect and defend everything you stand for! Everybody is not going to agree, maybe nobody will agree. But it doesn't matter cause it's for YOU to understand, and when the time comes they'll get it. They'll see the person you're becoming and wanna be that person. Wanna know how and why you chose to work towards this person. Then you share your knowledge, never be selfish with sharing something you know! Especially your own people, wake them the hell up! Every chance you get. Our peers and even our elders. Because they have a big influence on how others think and see us. Toxic? Fuck it wear a mask and handle that shit! when you want to do something, sometimes it's better to keep quiet. A person will never understand your goal. For your goal is for you!
You ever tell a person something you want to do and they ask you why? Instead of asking how? Yea I used to get that a lot. But now I don't share what I want to do with others, I tell them you wouldn't understand. Ending the conversation in its tracks; I turn the conversation into. Are you going in the right direction? Are you on the right track? For, the person will understand You want to help and not hate. This won't work if you aren't around the right people, and if your intentions are really bad. It's ok to keep MAJORITY of your life to yourself. Don't feel guilty and don't let a person guilt you into sharing information that isn't suppose to be shared yet. Demons are usually in disguise, so you won't know their intentions until you actually try to accomplish something you stated. It can't be something so simple as saying you want these sneakers and you try and get them but for some reason they don't have your size? Or the car you wanted all of a sudden you need a co signer. It's little things we don't notice that doesn't go right us because we shared it to early. I rather explain how I did it than tell me what I want to do! I don't want to tell my shit because it's my shit! Get your own shit to worry about!!! Im sick of ugly people, and I don't mean ugly on the outside. I'm saying a person that is so ugly on the inside that, now they are just physically ugly! I'm sick of a people who don't have they life together but quick to judge or quick to comment! I'm tired of the listening ear, and not the answering mouth.
I noticed, stop saying something before it happens. Stop letting people share your dream and your vision. Because it is yours! For, once you say something out loud, you just allowed a person to be able to take it from you. And we all make mistakes with sharing great news, thinking a person is going to be happy for you. But they really can be , but their misery and soul won't even allow them too. And it's scary, we don't notice that once we start saying things out loud. We start doubting what we wanted to do, we give somebody the chance to tell us how we should do it. You have a vision, you have a plan. So why let somebody steal that from you? Im not one of these people who think everybody is out to get me or sabotage me. I always let my family feelings and actions hold me back. But once I started to do me, I notice family are the epitome of a obstacle. A set back, a way for you to always fall victim into withholding a cycle. A cycle that isn't written in stone. A cycle that has our family members and friends brainwashed. It's sad that a person looks at your crazy for not believing in a white Jesus or what I like to call him a "imaginary god" . Why should I be criticized for loving myself and being happy? Why am I questioned about my happiness but never my fears on failure. Why do I have to tell you about my downs and not my ups? Stop answering questions! And start having conversations. Conversations to enlighten! Buisness conversation. Let's have talks about partnering in a movement! Man I'm tired of the small talk, Small talk don't make moves! Buisness meetings do! . I've been wanting to blog on this topic a while, but due to me not wanting to offend anybody I didn't. But here it goes!
Now, I'm sick of tired of living a lie. Living my life for another person. I know we all deal with guilt inflicted on us by our parents, and we let it control our well being. And I'm here to say live for you! And what I mean is, we no longer have to make up excuses for somebody steering us in the wrong direction. It's ok to be right! And it's ok to question everything you ever believed in. I believed that parents are hear to guide you and support you, but they sabotage us from young. And when I say this I'm not saying this to be mean, I'm saying this to be real. The problem with our parents is that they never loved themselves, they never spoke life into themselves. Any achievements or any downfall that came into their lives, they blamed it on a imaginary person, they wasn't taught how to big themselves up for their own accomplishments. And it's sad, it's sad because we never notice that our parents really never had a answer for us! They never really taught us anything but the basics. Now when I say basics I mean IGNORANCE. They taught us to direct and blame all our problems on this imaginary god. They didn't teach us that we are god, and anything we say or do effects us, everything that happens to us is because of us! EVERY ACTION HAD A REACTION AND EVERYTHING YOU DID YESTERDAY AFFECTS YOUR TODAY. So stop blaming your achievements on this imaginary person and start giving ourself credit! Stop thanking a imaginary person for your good man and start thanking him for being a good man. Stop blaming your kids for your mistakes! Stop blaming your kids for your lack of education! Stop blaming your kids for how the Europeans choose to treat them! You are the one to blame. And at this point it's up to us to wake up! If we don't, we'll Continue this cycle of sabotaging our people! And the "woke" ones like myself will just be laughed. Because nobody going to want to hear it! Let's educate ourselves on our melanin! Let's educate ourselves on the zodiac signs for that is really what controls us! Open your eyes but really open your mouth! Sometimes my honesty may come off too strong, sometimes my thoughts may slip out. But that's apart of me, and I am outspoken. It's funny because people say oh you're not outspoken, you always have "something to say". And i noticed kids always have "something to say", and I am a adult seeing things for what they are and not being afraid to SAY IT OUT LOUD. But remember a person who wants to hear the truth will always keep a person like us around. But that doesn't mean go around saying what you want and how you want. Remember it's your heart that speaks not your mouth! So say things with pure intentions, and mean it with your heart ❣
Sometimes my honesty may come off too strong, sometimes my thoughts may slip out. But that's apart of me, and I am outspoken. It's funny because people say oh you're not outspoken, you always have "something to say". And i noticed kids always have "something to say", and I am a adult seeing things for what they are and not being afraid to SAY IT OUT LOUD. But remember a person who wants to hear the truth will always keep a person like us around. But that doesn't mean go around saying what you want and how you want. Remember it's your heart that speaks not your mouth! So say things with pure intentions, and mean it with your heart ❣
Ladies, let me ask you a question. What makes you a "loyal" chick? Or a "ride or die"?
well ladies, I know you guys answered in your head" Im loyal because I hold that man down, anything he need I got it for him." But, what about the things he do for you? Or the way he treats you?. It's sad because we don't ask ourself this question. We kind of make up excuses. And avoid the fact that we deserve better! Ok so look, when your "man" goes without answering his phone for hours. What's the first thought that pops up in your head? "This man is cheating" and if so get rid of him now!!!!!! For that is your inner self giving you a sign, and if you notice a female that won't leave your man alone. She's being entertained, very well at that. If your man try's and tell you " i like to keep my relationship private, I don't want people in my buisness" dump his ass girl! Because a man shows of ANYTHING THAT HE IS PROUD OF. so don't let a little boy tell you that foolish excuse. He just wants to keep everybody happy. And when I say everybody I mean his friends, that trick and the audience. Now let me tell you a secret, men don't change! They either get better or worse. Once a cheater always a cheater. And if he hit you once he'll hit you again! So please don't fall in the trap. And I know it's harder said then don't but remember you are what you attract. You tired of dealing with bozos GLOW UP! The higher you elevate yourself, the harder it is for the peasants to get next to you! hmm so I have a question. You ever felt like you was being "taken advantage of"? Why?...... now think about it. when you do something for a person, it's because you want to do it right. So why do we feel like we are being used? The logic is simple, a person can only take what you give. Once you stop giving, they stop taking. And if they start asking, it's simple DUB them. Because beggars can't be choosers. And now that person is starting to take your kindness for a weakness, and it's simple we can't allow that. For that's when we are "taken advantage of". What's the difference between a "giver" and a "taker" one of them always have their hand out!
Sometimes my humbleness may come off the wrong way, sometimes the way I was brought up can rub a person the wrong way. But I won't apologize for respect. I won't apologize for your lack of respect ,and your lack of intelligence. I will not let you belittle me ,because you don't understand why I carry myself the way I do. What do I owe you? A explanation ? No you owe me a apology! Matter of fact you don't. I will apologize for not understanding where you are coming from. I will apologize for not having patience for a broken soul! But what is a broken soul that doesn't want to be fixed? A person who doesn't want to see the truth. And if you don't wanna see the truth, you are proud of the lie that you are living in. But hey, who am I to judge? Nobody just a pure soul that would like to help ✨
ok guys, this blog is dedicated to everybody who struggle with self help and just creating a happy place.
Step #1. In order for you to help your self. You have to make sure you confront all of your flaws, confront all the people that ever hurt you. But when I say confront I mean forgive. I don't mean telling them your sorry or you forgive them. Just say it within And mean it. Holding onto hate can take a toll on your soul. Ok so let me elaborate on confronting your flaws, Remeber in elementary school when you used to get picked on and the things they said really hurt? And you wondered why it hurt so much? It hurt so much because they was pointing out flaws you haven't dealt with yet. Honestly speaking. Dealing with my flaws was probably the hardest time of my life. Only because I almost thought flaws meant I'm not perfect and i wanted to be. So write down all your "flaws" and ask yourself why is this a "flaw" and not a asset? I battled with my flaws by calling them assets, you know why right? What's a asset to a flaw? A asset is that extra sprinkle to make you who you are! Step#2. Creating a happy place. Now anybody who personally knows me, knows how angry of a person I used to be. Well maybe not angry but more of " I don't take no shit, speak my mind, I'm always right" kind of attitude. And I can honestly say now, that persona of me was ugly! All of my insecurities spoke volumes into the way I carried myself. Fighting everyday. Being abusive in my past relationships. Disrespecting people for no reason. Just everything. So about 2 years ago I asked myself why are you so angry? What is really your problem? My problem was I didn't know what a happy place was because I never been it. So I started to think of things that made me happy, and all reasons why I had to be happy. I deserved to be happy because my life has a meaning may not have a meaning to you but it does to me. My life has a actual purpose. You may not notice how many people look forward to hearing from you or may even look foward to your smile and your glow! I never noticed how much my happiness meant to me until I realized when I'm not happy it messes with the people around me ,and it messes with my soul. For, I am no where near a angry person. I am a bubbly person who doesn't like to stop laughing, but who knows how to deal with conflict now. Also who knows how to carry herself like a young lady with a little bit of spice attached. Step#3. My last reason to be happy is. It's pretty. Who really has a ugly smile? And you be surprise your smile can simply make another persons day. Or your smile could of been the reason why a person didn't commit suicide today.! JUST SMILE. You will feel way better You know, I noticed that people make up excuses for being true to yourself. And they try to belittle the love you have for yourself. the first question is why? What makes you so special ? I tell them straight up " BEING ME IS SPECIAL, YOU CAN'T BE ME. OR CAN YOU ?" It may sound cocky but Its the truth, You can't be me and i definitely can't be you. But does that mean i shouldn't give you credit for being you ? no it doesn't. I give you the utmost respect for being you, because in the generation filled with clones. I love to see a real one.
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